Rough September

Never knew why they sing the song "wake me up till September ends". I always thought, Are you crazy!!! Wake up when Sept comes coz its my birthday month!

This year, I realized why some people hate September. Not that I hate September, but this year, it has been particularly extremely tiring.

I've been juggling two jobs, experiencing another heavy bleeding, and on the side, planning my house renovation again.
Please don't ask what happened to my house. I've been so busy that even that little bit of work has been put off on hold.

Being so tired, and having less fun, I still helped out with 'the' family to set up a birthday party. Because i helped, people started talking about me getting pregnant.
And being over excited of the word 'pregnant', she spilled the beans about me having miscarriage as if it meant nothing to her or anyone else for that matter!

And because she made it so casual, some retarded lady came asking to just to confirm if it was real.
Do note that these are all family members of my husbands. I didn't know if i should just yell at the one who spilled the word out or just kick the lady who just asked me.

I would understand if the lady came sympathizing on me. At least I wouldn't feel 'that' bad thinking she had good faith. But this was different. She just came, asked and left.
Obviously I denied. But as if she cared. She just got the news from the most reliable source.

And so what did I do?

well, I walked over to Josh and questioned him out loud. Just because his father (and no one else) was sitting behind him..Josh was shocked. At the time, we still didn't know who spoke about this. So being me, angry and frustrated, I walked over to Josh's dad and asked. Well, it wasn't him. He was as shocked as we were.
So i suspected.. must be one of the female in the house.

I spot one of them, alone. I went over and asked in a curious manner.
She answered in the most casual way that she was the person who said it.
I lost my head.
I told her "I thought the pregnancy was meant to be a secret, until we were all sure that it was safe to tell everyone.. why did you say it out?"

She just looked at me surprised and walked away!
Can you believe that? It was as if it was my wrong to question her!

I left. I left the party right away. But I still had my manners to bid everyone goodbye. Obviously she ignored me.

This happened 2 weeks ago.

The family invited me for dinner last Sunday. Josh and I went, only to have her still ignoring us. Yes, Us, not just me..

What get my blood boiling is, you preach about forgiveness, patiences, and everything the bible teaches.. but you don't keep secrets, you act childishly and you keep grudges.

Great.

I should be the one dead pissed at you. I should be the one ignoring you.

But because I'm better than you, I'm just keep it low. So here it is, me letting off my anger in this secret blog that I have, that no one ever knows about.

its August!

I have been missing a while. That really shows how busy I've been.
Oh well, I'm not complaining. I kinda like this life, really. Being my own boss with Mr Hubs is pretty fun.
We go to work together, wake up late whenever, and get stressed together as well. Hahaha

Besides working, our house is nearly completed! Just waiting for some extra cash to beautify it to the way I like it before I move in. I believe it'd be a mess to move in, and to get some minor reno done later.
I hope we get to move in by my Birthday in Sept :)

Milk.

Not sure why this is happening. But it is happening.

Sh!t!


Other than that, everything is picking up slowly. I'm glad I am this busy to take my mind of it :)

First Day

I had a meltdown 2 nights ago.

Thinking what would have been a 3 month thing, that was no longer in me.
I was a little upset, more disappointed that I could've ever imagined.

I believe God has reasons for this. I trust in Him. I don't blame anyone. I'm just disappointed that it had to turn out like this.

I try not to talk about it. Try to not think about it.

So I offered to help Josh's sister out in her boutique. Bringing it to a whole new level, via online sale.
On top of that, I also agreed to help Josh out in his gym.

I am supposed to be studying right now. Exam is a month away, but I can't seem to focus on the notes. My mind keeps drifting to what could've been, and what ifs.


I am an avid follower of few blogs, and they all talking about their kids, and pregnancy.. which isn't helping me much. So, I try to stay off it by doing some actual work.

Be out there in the field, pressured and focused on a goal.


So here I am now, waiting. Waiting for my first sales call.
My first day of work after 2 months.

Old fashioned house to a contemporary design

My house has been in the works for almost 2 years.

I got conned by the previous contractor, and lost 20,000 bucks.

I hired a new contractor recently, and so far, its been progressing really well!


We just got the paint samples, and we were trying to crack our heads on which color to choose.
Being a dummy in Photoshop, I resorted to Windows Paint.

My final paint will be in this :

Eating Turtle Eggs!

This is a random piece that just came into my mind.

I just sawone of my Facebook friend who was my high school mate posting this on her page:

In case you didn't know, turtles are endangered species, and selling/buying turtle eggs for whatever reason is illegal.

I am really curious if she actually thought about the consequences posting this up.

Has Facebook made people to post everything under the sun as if it was a routine to record everything they do, despite it being wrong?

She posted this 50 mins ago, as per screen shot, but no one has commented anything, and someone has even liked the picture!

Not to mention, she hashed tagged it under 'irresponsible world citizen'.

Is she proud to have eaten them?

I know this is wrong, and I wish to tell her off. But How do I do it nicely?

How would you do it if you were me?

General Election 2013 Malaysia

Today's the day where all Malaysian adults get up early on a Sunday to simply cast their vote for the ruling party in Parliamentary and their own state.

There's been lots of news on 'phantom voters' coming in to for certain areas. These voters aren't exactly Malaysian. They are Nepalese, Bangladeshis and Indonesians who miraculously have a Malaysian Identity card.

Once these new got out (thanks to Facebook) , some angry citizens stood by the gates of the school where the voting is stationed.
Below is the link to a 4 minute video on angry citizens holding these phantom voters (PV) and confiscating their Identity Card.
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=10151657453748561&set=vb.716048560&type=2&theater

Apparently, these PV are paid to come to Malaysia, given an identity card, and sworn to vote for a particular party.

Whether or not it is right to bash these people up is a subjective question. In my opinion, bashing these PV this round will deter or in fact make future PV's to think twice before agreeing to a free flight,cash and IC.
I think they should just stink to minding their own business.

Malaysia is a multi ethnic and cultural country. However, we Malaysians can easily identify people who are not one of us.

Polling stations closed at 5pm, and we are currently waiting for the results.

Malaysia.
Tomorrow, you may be something new :)
*fingers crossed*